Stephen and Robert
If i told you that i hate this world
and wish that i were dead
And i still made you smile
Would it mean anything?
The past 3 days have been amazing. I saw Blacklisted 3 times, hung out with the best people and a sea snake tried to kill me.
But now I don’t know what I’m doing and everything sucks again xoxo
I won’t find answers finding myself
can’t find myself when there’s nothing to find
You let me sleep on your couch and your floor even in your bed window side
You let me have the corner in your closet a place where my boxed up life could reside
In return I showed you how life was like a painting
One so violent and depressing you just closed your eyes
When you saw me disintegrating
You’d stand by and just watch me vaporize as the world fell in love with me
You fell out or so it seemed
Change your sheets to rid yourself of me
Because its been weeks and you still speak in your sleep
Remember when you brought home that picture of your dad
Hung it on the wall as a reminder of what it is to be a man
Well, I was lying when I said I didn’t know where it went
I tore it up laughing and I’d do it again
Because before I met you I had just that chance
I could have been a loving father, but at the time I couldn’t bother
And since then to be honest things haven’t gotten any better
You and I live as strangers, you’re always writing others letters
As the world fell in love with me you fell out or so it seemed
Change your sheets to rid yourself of me
Because its been weeks and you still speak in your sleep
I’ve thrown myself to the floor like a children’s doll
Feeling so so volatile
Why wouldn’t you talk to me when I tried
Hid yourself behind a do not resuscitate sign
Leaving me to decide
Whether you fell in love with a girl or a guy
Or did you get lost inside the world you hid from me all this time
Letting me know exactly what was yours and never mine
Still, Ill harvest the blame
To me its all the same
The guilty have no shame
Jokingly said you’d burn all that was mine in your place
With serious written all over your face
So I sleep in my cloths just in case
I feel the flames touch my face I cam make my escape with grace
I really want to be back in New Zealand right now
I am dying of embarrassment, I’m dying of this hatred,
I can’t rest until you know this bitterness that I have tasted.
Such humiliation for the first and only time,
I’m obsessed with your self-righteousness cut in half by your smile.
Into the night, you’re getting harder to believe in,
You’re a cold and quiet paradise transfixed just by your breathing, into the night.
And you’re the one thing I don’t hate,
You’re a cold and quiet paradise my only true escape into the night.
The Many Faces Of Mental Chillness
Summer Vacation — Summer Vacation/Joyce Manor
The Many Faces Of Mental Chillness - Summer Vacation
Today was okay
I feel sick, I have a job interview tomorrow at Myer, I’m seeing Blacklisted in a week, new Blacklisted rules, I am so tired, Borderlands 2 is sick, the internet sucks, my friends are the best ever and I miss you.
Mentalist
Blacklisted — So, You Are A Magician?
…you just whisper to your friends, ‘Yeah, but can he fly?’.
Done Right Discount Flooring
Joyce Manor — Constant Headache
Done Right Discount Flooring - Joyce Manor
